Woke up late

1:40 wake up
*sigh*
I skipped church
Got tons of homework (don't wanna start~ -_-)
This is my breakfast...
Looks like lunch will be instant noodles ~~~~
(So lame~ TT_TT)

Tequilla Tart

My very good chemistry make-up teacher Ms. Spillard made (baked?) tequilla tarts for the whole class on the day she gave us finals exams ^_^
They taste so good that I savored mine to the end and asked her for the last one >.<
Then I brought it home for my parents to try out, but two weeks later (now) no one has eaten it yet -_-
I'm super mad cuz now it doesn't look so hood, but I really felt like eating it -_-#
My parents haven't even tried it yet QQ
Now mom says it's probably no good, since my finals were, like, two Wednesdays ago T_T
Next time, I should ask her for the recipe XD -__-

Locked Out :'(

...
this is another post on FB that imma delete in one day.

:c i just got locked out of the house :'(
it's cold :( no jacket
no cell phone :( can't call anyone
doorbell fails :( lilian rang it 9 times b4 calling someone inside
I've learned my lesson: Always check the door before you walk out of the house :(
(don't worry, i got back in after ringing the bell 3x TT_TT)

i should start tagging these as one day posts.
i mean, like, i guess i do like it if someone might just happen to see it, but i don't want to risk it becoming a big problem. it's kinda funny and sad that people think i'm... not weird... maybe just a little off and trying too much. it's worse if they think i have too many problems at home and see a bad side to my family. no one wants to see the image of a family of a person close to them shattered, ruined, and ... forever tensed in an overflowing message of a single incident.
I still have my pride to watch out for, and if my family looks bad, so does that make me look weak... i guess.
derg, i must be just filling in words to make this whole thing seem soooo overmelodramatic (whatever that means) cuz it's fun to make up this stuff, even though i don't remember the exact feeling of the moment when i write it down. i mean, sure, i had some idea while i was standing out there only wearing a t-shirt and jeans in the night fog, an empty construction site to my left, the clang of a weight as it swings under the flag, the slight cool breeze that nudges the flag to flap, that i would've taken the time to enjoy if i wasn't worring about getting into the house to wrap myself up in a warm blanket first... yes i love my soft blanky.
if (only) i was a little taller... then i at least could've looked through the window so that i know whether someone is on the other side or on their way or if the bell didn't work -A- i wanna grow a little... i want my growth spurt X[
then once i get back in, i get yelled at. not much of a welcom, i know, but the yelling would've been worse if i, like, ran away or did something while i was outside and... disappeared (?).

Small white growth

I noticed this since... Around the time second semester started. I think it was around an important day. At first I guesses it was the day I quit being an honor student for sure. Then I remember that I was dressed really nice when I saw it and felt something wrong, so I probably showed it to my mom after my preschool's Spring Gala (I wonder how you spell that~).
Today, I've been noticing it more than usual kinda. I hope I'm not just somehow convincing myself of the worst, but it seems to be sticking out more and more... Maybe its growing 0_0! JK, but it didn't used to be so easy to see when I relaxed my hand.
Twice today, I was afraid to use full force on my pinkie to carry my Chinese textbook or something, but just now, when I really did straighten out my finger, I felt the book against the little white lump and... It's like a little bit of fought (?) skin was stretched over the cartilage :l weird...
I hope its not cancer ^_^
Probably not ^_^" XD
(i also wonder, if the enter thing works here, why doesn't it work on the computer? (hehehe, I just used voice command XD). I'll have to somehow find out how to type returns/enters in code... I hate the new Blogger format, I kinda like the older one better, or I'm at least more used to it, it's easier, good thing I found a way to switch back last time I posted from the computer teehees (voice command isn't very accurate, took longer to process... the correct words -_-) if that doesn't work, I guess I could always edit from my phone...)
Oh! A I just heard a seagul fly over the house. That's rare...

Description... try #1

hehe... i tried to add a description this time ^^ hope it's okay >< just like for www.happypix2009.blogspot.com, i had to deal with the frustration of a 500 character limit X[ i almost rambled, too! i mean, i just made myself seem like such a fake ppl pleaser, it's so... vague! this is what i really wanted to type out. next time, imma type it into paint again or something so that i don't have to worry about any 500 character limit XP. i might even just replace the whole thing with... a picture! i dunno how others do this kind of stuff, but i will make it work... somehow... someday...

okay... at first, i chose the option of making this a kind of photo blog where i just post pictures that i liked to find every now and then, which i used to do before i graduated and stopped using HappyPix2009.blogspot.com. now, i just post anything i feel like putting up online and don't feel like loosing or writing anywhere else. ur gonna c all the things that i dare to post no where else but here, cuz there are always those things that i want to be seen anywhere anytime and anywhere where no one i know will see and criticize me and ask me about it any other time ^^ anyway, enuff rambling, comment if u like or don't like anything, make suggestions so i could improve (the more ppl view & comment, the better this should b), and i'll try to post up things that anyone likes. Take Your Pick at what you like and I'll post up things and pictures that I like :) hopefully i'll get this organized better sooner or later, but since it's almost summer, (as i said last time) i might check this more often and make this better sooner ^^ Cheers!

of course i wanted to edit it again another time, but... o well! deal w/ it 4 now ^^ THANX! teeheesXDcya!

Vote 4 me, _____y _ee

This sounds somewhat familiar every time... First it was "vote for me, Bailey Yee for c/o '13 President"...
...
Now this:

May 12, 2012 @ ~4:30pm I think... Nope, I got it wrong. That was a Saturday, this was taken way earlier last week, maybe even the week before that . _. cuz elections were on Friday XD

My Letter to God

I had a really hard time last night, and my eyes still hurt from it. hehe, no one told me that crying so much (i didn't cry all night, i only cried for about maybe 15 mins) would give me such a headache~ i mean, i knew i'd get puffy eyes and i almost posted "get ready for a day of super chinky eyes 2mrro!", but i already spammed the newsfeed too much. I did post a super long prayer, since it helps me concentrate my thoughts better that way (I can't pray out loud or in my mind -_-"). i typed it the whole time i was crying, posted it, then washed my super snotty wet face and went to bed. at least i didn't cry myself to sleep TT_TT. imma delete the post and post it here where no one looks so that i still have it, even though i don't want anyone else to see it on FB. I replaced it with lyrics from Adele's "Someone Like You" that i really wanted to post yesterday cuz that part and the chorus and bridge were stuck in my head. that's what i like. i couldn't understand why pple loved adele songs so much, but i didn't learn to love the song until my choir started singing it and i started to love the chorus, pre-chorus, and bridge, but not the verses, i hate them. i hate praying though cuz i'm afraid i'll offend someone T_T. here it is XD:

Jaje Jang ‎"God... Save me... I don't like making my parents mad, maybe because I'm scared of being yelled at. I don't like crying like this because it's uncomfortable and unclean. I can't talk. I can't breath through my own nose. I can't hold all my tears in the palm of my hand. I... can't think right. My forehead hurts from hyperventilation. God, I'm sad. I'm sorry for my parents. I'm sorry for myself. I'...m not good enough for anyone. All I do is laugh it off until I cry it out all too much all at once. I'm sorry, and it's all my fault. I should've been smarter. I should've used my brain. Why am I not good enough the way I am, despite being made,in your image. It's not your fault nor their fault. I can't see why I just can't do what I'm supposed to. Am I meant to cry like this? What will I learn from these painful tears? It hurts, but I have to keep going. Please give me the guidance and strength for me to continue on. For my family to continue on. For my life to continue on. For anyone who feels the same way so that they don't have to go through the same thing. So that they don't have to go through the same tears, hear the same shouts, and feel the same throb in my eyes, in my face, on my head, in my face, in my mind, and in my heart. So that they don't have to fight against their own parents who loves them and raised them as their own and gives everthing to them. So that they don't have to try to fight back, even if they don't know how to fight back and know that fighting back is futile, that fighting back will only result in their loss, because they know they are wrong, and you shouldn't fight against a parent in the first place. I know I'd feel lonely if I didn't know I wasn't the only one, but please don't let anyone else feel this way and forgive and help those who already feel like crying. Amen" If only God will read this... I hope he does.

then later, i wrote...

"I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, but I- couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I had hoped you'd see my face___ and that you'd be reminded that, for me,... It isn't over.____" I start adding more ppl when I'm sad. Thanx ppls (^-^)v

Geh! I think I found... like... 3 typos earlier D: o wellz. imma delete it anyway teeheesXD thanx for reading! I'd feel much better if someone read it from here (rather) than from facebook, cuz u chose to read it ^_^ (unlike all my friends who r stuck reading my posts because it pops up in their newsfeeds). hopefully no one saw it yet XD thanx 4 reading. SeeyaTeeheesXD

2-3 digits

ahaha... so like my sister got some adele-set fire to the rain sheet music and i yelled at her for forgetting where she got the sheet music from. then sunday someone else asks her and she tells him right away and im first like "what?! you tell him, no hesitation, and yet you don't bother to remember for me ? then, after the fury wore off, her answer really registered. "Wait, Little Transciber?" OMG Little Transcriber is AWESOME!!!! i mean, like, i don't know why i stopped liking and playing his/her/their music, but whoever it is is just amazing at transcibing practically, like, any song. i mean like, i wonder what software they use, cuz it's so clean and neatly done, even though it's not always easy, but it's soooo accurate XD once i get home, imma print a whole bunch of their sheet music from the site and try 'em out 2mrro ;D 2 pics : i thought it was pretty cool that there were like these 3 things on the side of the page that i could like. it was kinda suspicious and weird that none of the names were LilTranscriber, but they all had the LilTranscriber logo, so i'll see what happens. anyway... ummmm... what was i gonna say again? oh yeah, so this post was supposed to be how funny and rare it is that one (or two, i don't know why there are two of the same thing)of the things i liked had like 39 likes before me and the other one had, like, 395, so it was like,"did they make a mistake in counting the # of likes for the first two? cuz it seems more likely to me that both would have the same number of likes rather than being one whole digit off... cuz i don't really know what they are so they seem the same to me with the same logo and stuff... yeah... i took screenshots before and after and before and after again i liked it (i unliked it cuz the 1st screenshot didn't work the way i expected it (stinkin school PC!)) here they are TeeheesXD

Beautiful Day

'kay, so, like, I'm super mad because the sunrise was so nice that I couldn't get a proper picture of it. Grrrr... now the sun is shining into the bus and practically mocking me for not getting a good picture of it. X[ Hmph! Anyway... The whether is bestesti

today cuz the sun's shining so nicely even though its not very warm. In fact, its kinda... chilly? But its refreshing and I'm not cold at all ^_^ ewwww... Someone on the bus has bad breath X< So.. like, I knew the whether was gonna be awesome today right when I opened the door. I mean, the air was that fresh, even though I'm in the city XD. It's the perfect temperature for my mood today and its just in time for prom tonight :)> This day shall be AWESOME!!!! ^_^ (hey... where did my bold and italic button go?)

My letter to mom

Actually... Scratch that. It was an email. Poor little me sent this to my poor mommy something that I have never sent, but always thought, in my email that I sent to her along with the YouTube video that she wanted to bookmark because I was having a bad swing in moods cuz I'm PMSing ^_^ here it is!

" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYcIdchHxB4&feature=youtube_gdata_player

"BLEEEEHHHH! Not in a good mood now XP. You made me shout too loud and kept saying I'm the one who's not taking to you, even though I'm trying to speak as loud as I can without being rude, esp. when other people were trying to have a conversation almost right next to us. Hmph [-(. This is why sometimes I just wanna tape my mouth closed with duct tape or something ~x(. Nothing good ever comes out of my mouth.:(( great, now my nose is running :(.

"Fine! Here's your eyelashes yarn Lei video from YouTube just in case you don't... bookmark it. I don't know what you mean by bookmark, since you don't even have a YouTube account [-(. J hardly even know what you mean by turning it off, cuz there's a big difference between putting it in sleep mode and turning it off [-(...

"[-([-([-([-([-([-([-([-( not happy!

"Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android"

Okay... Since I was typing this using my Yahoo!Mail app, I could only use the emoticons that the app provides in order to express my... discontent?... contempt?... I wasn't really angry... O don't really know how to say what I was feeling... I wad not happy (-_-)"... Poor mommy (._., ) if I reborn, karma will force me into a very sad and pessimistic life :'(

Anyway... So the emoticons are...

[-( = that face you make when u cross your arms and go "Hmph!"

~X( =... I don't really remember... Oh yeah! It's the one where the guy noogies himself and squeezes his eyes! I think if the emoticons were the moving type, that one would blow up (and I do mean upwards like a volcano) in rage and yelling... ^_^"

:((= obviously this one means the guy is crying... Pret-ty hard...

:( = how obvious can this get? Sad face

And I think that's it. Thanx 4 listening to my cry story! XD

Pretty clouuuuds...

Well not as pretty as it was in the evening Monday, but... nvm, these can't/don't even compare to the solid whiteness, fluffyness, and makes-you-want-to-punch-ness of Monday's evening clouds... (I can't believe the phone accepts that "word" -_-'). Alright, I admit that some of those clouds were whiter than others... in the back... but the ones in front were touched peach by whatever sunset was present at the time ¦) I did wand to take a picture, but... I found the best view while crossing an intersection in front of a hospital with one of those retirement home buses waiting to turn across the two crosswalks I (or my family) were crosssing -_-  suuuucks... The clouds looked pretty good back at home too

Ain't that cute?

1. Yes, I'm at a cemetery now.
It's chingming, and my family's here ^_^
2. ... I like peeps
3. Pretty, ain't it?

Wha?

Must be a joke. Today's way sunnier than yesterday. What's with this? This is not the kind of weather to walk out of night class on at around 5 pm in the afternoon... But its nice <('-' )>

Actually...

Ahahaha... This was taken around 5:30-5:45 pm. And it looked so sunny, you'd never thought you'd be hit by a drop of water after crossing the street T--T. Geh... Switching phones and SD cards confuse me too much. I just noticed that the only reason why I wanted to return this phone was because I thought the vibrations and speaker volume was too low,
but now I realize that I just had to take the plastic off the speaker (<_<)...
Once I get Blogger on my replacement phone, Imma edit and upload the picture. Later
TeeheesXD

(Posted yesterday...)

After Night Class

What I like to do these days is to take pix of the setting sun when I get out of my night class (it's more like an afternoon class...). The sky always has a different feel(ing) to it whenever I walk out of the school *sigh*
In the future, I might post more pix of the sunset or sunrise (because I don't get to appreciate it too often, and neither do a lot of other people -_-
I <3 the colors of the sky XD

(Originally posted @ 12:18am this morning...though it's still an entire day late...)

Sunrise 03/07/12

<p>I &lt;3 taking pix of sunrise &amp; sunsets~ ^_^<br>
Today's especially seemed bright and hopeful :) ............ I should've brought a hat -_-'
Heyyyyy... This sun's getting into my eyes whether I'm walking or on the bus... #-_-
O wellz..
Oh! I almost posted this on Facebook, then I thought about it again, cuz then my friends'd be like "another picture of a street?? Imma block her if she keeps posting pix like that all the time >:("
So then I thought, "oh yeah, I could just post all the useless seeming embarrassing pictures by getting the Blogger app and make all my blog viewers see this rather than friends I don't want to loose ;). This way, at least my pix end up somewhere... >_>
TeeheesXD

Ha! Beat that!

Why didn't I think of this before?! Ever since I got these new toys (touch screens are addicting) I've been stuck online... reading. Basically, I almost never read a real book anymore and I procrastinate on homework so bad for the past couple years

that I'll never be free of it anymore :( ANYWAY... I thought that having an app would help me update more often, and thus improve my posts and attract more viewers and make posting to no one less... embarrassing, but I gave up after I couldn't find one on iTunes... PLUS... b4, the easiest way to share any of my cool random pictures was by sending them directly from my phone to Facebook -_- I regret forcing all my friends to see all my cool sunset or other cool pictures in their newsfeed, resulting in making nearly all my posts/status updates seem like... spam (I HATE SPAM... THE QUESTIONABLE MEAT ;P) NOW... I can easily post anything with my new Android compatible toy and I can make this blog interesting by posting up cool pictures by a single touch of the photo button <('-' )> Let's see... what should I post for my first picture...? NOOOO! It's so cool! DX I can't believe my first posted pic will be one my sister posted before >_< the Asian level/version of MP3 >o< ... ( I'll label this later. Let's see... this I posted on... Monday, March 05, 2012 @... 18:26) XD TeeheesXD (Originally Posted Wednesday, March 7, 2012 @ ~ 6-9:56 pm...) ( My bad, it as Tuesday, March 6, 2012...)