Locked Out :'(

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this is another post on FB that imma delete in one day.

:c i just got locked out of the house :'(
it's cold :( no jacket
no cell phone :( can't call anyone
doorbell fails :( lilian rang it 9 times b4 calling someone inside
I've learned my lesson: Always check the door before you walk out of the house :(
(don't worry, i got back in after ringing the bell 3x TT_TT)

i should start tagging these as one day posts.
i mean, like, i guess i do like it if someone might just happen to see it, but i don't want to risk it becoming a big problem. it's kinda funny and sad that people think i'm... not weird... maybe just a little off and trying too much. it's worse if they think i have too many problems at home and see a bad side to my family. no one wants to see the image of a family of a person close to them shattered, ruined, and ... forever tensed in an overflowing message of a single incident.
I still have my pride to watch out for, and if my family looks bad, so does that make me look weak... i guess.
derg, i must be just filling in words to make this whole thing seem soooo overmelodramatic (whatever that means) cuz it's fun to make up this stuff, even though i don't remember the exact feeling of the moment when i write it down. i mean, sure, i had some idea while i was standing out there only wearing a t-shirt and jeans in the night fog, an empty construction site to my left, the clang of a weight as it swings under the flag, the slight cool breeze that nudges the flag to flap, that i would've taken the time to enjoy if i wasn't worring about getting into the house to wrap myself up in a warm blanket first... yes i love my soft blanky.
if (only) i was a little taller... then i at least could've looked through the window so that i know whether someone is on the other side or on their way or if the bell didn't work -A- i wanna grow a little... i want my growth spurt X[
then once i get back in, i get yelled at. not much of a welcom, i know, but the yelling would've been worse if i, like, ran away or did something while i was outside and... disappeared (?).